On Your Own

Buckle up, because you are on your own.

Since the last few days I was going through a bad time. My anxiety had fired up, I had breakdowns at school, at home. I worried about petty things, and behaved and thought like a paranoid person. I questioned my behaviour, got no answers. I slept more, was tired most of the time from all of that thinking. I had frequent head aches, fatiqueness. I am better today. 

Yesterday I had a talk with a person, a teacher, who, I was sure, could help me out. Well, she did. It is obvious that I broke down in front of her as soon as I began speaking of my issues. She told quite a few important things to me and some of them should be noted down, really.

•  Be your own favourite.
•  Focus on what you like, but don't pressurise yourself.
•  Don't be too harsh on yourself. Lower down your expectations. 
•  It is okay to be average.
•  Focus on your own art, does not matter whether people like what you create. Be an artist for your own self.
•  You have get yourself out of your complexities because only you can do that.
•  Don't stress about it too much because all of this anxiety will make no sense when you look back upon this time a few years from now.

I know that these are very obvious things that probably most of us know already. I read such motivational stuff all the time and I knew these before yesterday too, but trust me it felt so much better when someone said it out loud enough for me to 'listen'. 

So, be selfish. Focus on your own good. Because you can love others only when you love yourself enough. 

'Solo ride till I die, because I have got myself for life'.

Be on your own, you'll be happy.

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